I am beyond blessed. I have an amazing family, loyal friends, and a wonderful boyfriend. My family is healthy. I have a nice roof over my head, a good car (well, most of the time), and all the shoes a girl could ask for. I’m not bragging, but I have to remind myself of this fact constantly because I tend to let certain things in my life overwhelm me. Since graduating from Georgetown four years ago (yikes) I have been lost. Don’t get me wrong: I was one of the lucky ones. I got a good paying job with benefits within months of graduating. I know things could have gone a different way. But, security doesn’t equal happiness. I have no idea what I want to do with my life.
In the past year, I have been miserable at my job. I don’t know how else to say it. Because of this, I have become almost intolerable. God bless my poor boyfriend… he’s definitely had to deal with the brunt of it. My attitude has also hurt my relationship with family and friends. That kills me. Half of the time I leave work in tears and have no desire to talk to anyone. It’s a terrible feeling. I try to take good things away from the experience: I have made some great friends, I get to work with my best friend Jessica, I met Jason when I started working there, and, to be honest, I now know what I DON’T want to do with my life. More than anything it has made me focus on myself and what I want. For as long as I remember, everyone in my life told me I should be a lawyer. It sounded like a great idea. I went to college with that plan in mind. But, as the old saying goes, life is what happens when you’re busy making plans. The biggest issue? I didn’t want to be a lawyer. I took the LSAT, looked at law schools… but it didn’t seem right. I never wanted to disappoint anyone. I wouldn’t call myself a “people-pleaser” but I couldn’t imagine not living up to the expectations everyone else had for me.
I am a HUGE believer in prayer. I pray a hundred times a day. Lately, I have prayed relentlessly for guidance and direction. I am not the most patient person in the world and began to lose any semblance of patience a couple of months ago. One day, a very dear friend called me and said she had just quit her job. I knew she was in a similar situation, and couldn’t have been happier for her. She told me that she was going to sell Mary Kay. Even though I was proud of her, I was taken aback. I couldn’t believe that someone could actually make a living selling makeup. Because she knew I was having a difficult time at work, she suggested I join her and sell Mary Kay, too. I told her I’d think about it. I put the thought in the back of my head and kept praying. Several weeks later, I received a Facebook message from a sorority sister I hadn’t spoken to in years. She told me that she couldn’t get me off her mind lately and said that I would be a great Mary Kay consultant. I took the message as a sign. I am so thankful both of those amazing women contacted me. After going over the pros and cons, I decided a week later to order my Mary Kay starter kit.
I don’t know anyone who loves makeup as much as I do. Seriously, I challenge you. I am obsessed. It’s one of my favorite things in the world. I spend more money at Sephora than anyone has a right to. I have turned several friends and family members onto some of my favorite brands because I talk about them like I’m an expert. I would go without food (and beer) just so I could purchase my favorite mascara. I have sincerely battled with my decision to sell Mary Kay… I have a $100,000 education and I’m going to sell makeup?! That is my personal battle. But, I have been happier in the past week than I’ve been in over a year. I am not going to quit my job and do Mary Kay full-time, but it gives me something to look forward to. I could talk about makeup everyday anyway, so I might as well make some extra money while doing so! And who knows where this can lead? This decision has forced me to look at what I really enjoy. I realized that a lot of people ask my advice on certain things: how to apply makeup, what colors to wear, where to buy shoes/clothes, and how to decorate. I have received a lot of compliments regarding the aforementioned things as well (even a woman at Walgreens told me I was like Carrie Bradshaw because I always wore fabulous shoes- DIE!). But, I didn’t think I could make a career out of any of those hobbies. I know what I like and what I think looks good and love sharing my opinions on these matters.
I cannot wait to start this adventure. I am so excited about meeting and connecting with various women through Mary Kay. Jason told me several times that my dream job was right in front of my face. Well, it just so happens that my dream job is very likely ON my face.
If you’re interested in hosting a party or ordering Mary Kay products, please let me know! I’m just getting started and I know it’s going to be a fun ride!