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A few weeks ago I went to my yearly eye exam. I’d been having some issues and sincerely thought my eyesight was getting worse. I wear contacts and glasses but had spent the last six months putting things up to my face to see it. On our way out of town one day, I asked J the price of gas as we drove by the gas station. “You can’t see that?” he asked. “You should be able to see it!” But I couldn’t. Not even close.
I’ve worn contacts since I was in eighth grade and my vision loss finally leveled off a few years ago. My optometrist said it was normal, but I feared I was losing it again, and at a rapid pace. I sat through the appointment with trepidation- what kind of news was I going to receive? After running a few more tests than normal I was luckily told my eyesight was fine… but my eyes were no longer producing tears. They were dry. “How many hours a day do you spend on the computer?” my optometrist asked. “Um, on a good day, 14.” Fourteen hours at least on a computer. Every weekday. And probably eight on weekends. She was shocked. I told her I was employed as a technical writer and blogged and freelanced in my free time. She prescribed me some outrageously expensive medicine looked at me and said “you have to give yourself a break.”
That’s much easier said than done, right? I feel like I’m constantly doing 100 things. I read blogs and reply to emails on breaks at work. I walked from one meeting to another last week while scheduling tweets. Even when there’s nothing going on, I feel I must work on something: apply for jobs, write posts, research WordPress and how to make my blog better, scrub the baseboards, paint the guest room, magic erase our white appliances, work out longer, organize the closet, visit a friend, brainstorm. I can’t sit still. I feel like it’s time wasted. I go to bed late because I try to fit everything in to the 24 hours I’m given each day.
It’s exhausting. So this week I’m giving myself a break. I’m going to eat all the grains and the carbs and (some of) the dairy. I’m going to drink wine and nap on the beach. I’m going to READ A BOOK (or three). I’m going to laugh with J and watch my niece explore the island and stay up late playing games with my siblings. I’ll reevaluate my priorities and come back feeling refreshed with new ideas. And hopefully free myself of this nagging eye twitch.
Do you struggle with doing too much? How do you give yourself a break?