Trying on that Old Navy dress a couple of weeks ago was a huge wake-up call for me.
I have been avoiding reality for the past seven months, but it found me by way of a too-tight dress. After that, I just started to unravel and examine what was really going on in my life.
What is going on? Stress. Work. Life. Always being behind on projects and emails and reading and laundry. Realizing time is getting away from me. Things in the house falling apart. Trying to be a better partner and daughter and sister and aunt and granddaughter and employee and friend. It snowballs and then you realize you have control over nothing.
Here’s the thing: stress will fuck you up. It will make you not realize you’ve gained 20 pounds until a dress doesn’t fit and you finally face the scale. It will lead you to not giving a shit about counting calories or mindlessly eating. It will lead to weeks of little sleep, so when you wake up for your 5:00 am workouts, you’ll half-ass your way through a few push-ups and squats before collapsing on the floor from exhaustion. It will lead to ordering $200 worth of shit from Target after a co-worker treats you like garbage because you need to put your mind on something else so you can finish the day.
Things get out of control sometimes and it takes something as simple as a dress or a messy garage to slap you back to life. When you’re struggling, it doesn’t take much for your life to go to shit. Doesn’t take much to gain 20 pounds or let emails pile up for six months or drink excessively or to be an asshole to someone you love. Doesn’t take much to forget to pay bills or lose your debit card or realize you haven’t been to the eye doctor in nearly two years.
But we can get back on track. It takes identifying and tackling the root of the issue. It could be as simple as taking a mental health day. Or week. It could mean leaving a job or relationship or town. Letting go of toxicity. Letting go of chaos. Getting your finances in order. Meditating. Praying. Seeking help, if that’s what it takes. You can’t eat it, spend it, or drink it away. I’ve tried. Until you conquer it, it will always be right below the surface.
Life is hard but you don’t have to make it harder. Let’s tackle it together, friends.