I intended on recapping Christmas break and our trip, but honestly, the entire thing was exhausting. We were only home one day the entire break and I didn’t snap a ton of pictures. I still feel tired from the hustle and bustle and look forward to a quiet weekend at home to catch my breath.
I don’t typically make resolutions and I’m hesitant to call these that: instead, there are MANY areas in my life that need work. This isn’t a “new year, new me” mantra. I need accountability. Plus, I feel like if I’m struggling with something, someone else out there might be, too. I want to be more open and honest this year and I feel like this is a good place to start.
The past six months have been incredibly trying and I’ve spent too much time surviving instead of thriving. I’ve made every excuse as to why things aren’t working out the way I planned, but ultimately the blame falls on me alone.
Eat healthier: This is one of my top priorities. I had a physical last year, and while all of the results came back perfectly healthy, I KNOW I need to lose weight. And I know I rely too heavily on junk. We have healthy dinners most nights (with occasional pizza and pasta), but I’ve been grabbing processed junk for breakfast and mindlessly snacking for lunch. The past couple of months I’ve put my health on the back burner. It’s no surprise that I feel like shit. I’m lethargic and moody and foggy and my stomach and head feel like garbage. I’m not taking care of myself. I do really well for awhile but then I crave peanut butter M&Ms or popcorn (or some other nonsense) and I’ll eat an entire bag in a few days while I work. This habit makes my daily workouts irrelevant. There will be days when I eat brownies and chips and that’s okay. I’m not above letting myself live; I simply need to find a balance. Please send me all of your healthy breakfast/snack/lunch ideas!
Don’t rely on alcohol to recover a bad day: I’m guilty of walking in the door from work after a crappy day and immediately pouring myself a beer, wine, or bourbon. Generally I don’t drink during the week, but I’ve been doing it more and more (especially the past few months thanks to the holidays). It’s nearly impossible to lose weight when you’re consuming all of those liquid calories. Plus, I want to get to the root of the bad days – not just supplement them with booze.
Less spending: I HAVE to make a dent in my debt this year, and I’ll never do it if I continue the spiral of mindless spending I’ve been on lately. Shopping is a coping mechanism for me. Bad day? Go to Ulta! Feeling down? Treat yo’self! I have closets full of these reckless moments, and more clothes/shoes/makeup than I can possibly wear. Just like alcohol (and food, quite frankly), I need to get to the root of the problem.
Find a new job: I’m hesitant to talk about work on here, but it is what it is. I need a new job. I’ve taken steps to make it better (including accepting a new role last summer), but things have only gone downhill. I deserve better and I’m tired of believing that I’m not enough.
Let go of bitterness and negativity: 2017 was one of the most challenging and negative years in my life. I’m negative by nature so I have to be intentional with positive thinking. I rarely automatically see the “good” in a situation, and that makes for a difficult life. Practicing gratitude and learning to control my second thought are two things I’ll be actively working to improve this year. I can’t keep putting off these shitty vibes and negative energy – both are great ways to push those you love away. I received a planner for Christmas and it has a daily section for “Today’s Top Three”. We all know not every day is good, but there is good in every day! And I intend to write down the three best things that happen each day, even if it’s just that I woke up. On Tuesday, a day that started with a phantom leak on our counters and ended with trash all over the kitchen, I wrote down “coffee, Mad Men, my car started.” It’s the little things, right?
Give others grace: I shared this in my “Goals for 2018” post, but, this is a daily struggle for me… probably because I have never been able to extend the same to myself. A few people hurt me in 2017 and I let it destroy those relationships. People are going to hurt you. They’re going to screw up. They’re going to disappoint you. They won’t work as hard or be as kind or be as forgiving as you. And the opposite is also true. You’re going to hurt and screw up and disappoint. It’s part of being human. It’s okay.
Read: Not just articles on Facebook/Twitter. I think I only finished three books last year? I usually average 20+.
Increase my blog/social media audience: This goal probably seem silly, and I’m a little embarrassed to share it. Of course it doesn’t matter in the grand scheme of things, and we all know numbers don’t measure your worth! I don’t even know which platform to focus on, honestly. I feel like Instagram is a shitshow (I’m literally seeing posts from a week ago) but would love to expand my reach and meet new people. I plan on sharing more personal posts (like this one!) and a little more budget-friendly fashion. I met some fantastic and talented blog friends in 2017, but I also felt left out, particularly locally. I’d really like to host some local blog events – especially for my fellow introverts. Networking isn’t easy for everyone.
Find and stick to a side hustle: Not only am I looking for a new job because of the work environment, but we’re also facing a pay cut the second half of the year, our insurance costs increased, and we’re possibly losing our pensions. I tried freelance tech writing last year and I failed completely. It was an embarrassing failure, but I also hated every second of it. If’ I’m going to have to work another job, I want it to be something I enjoy doing. I’d love to find a work-from-home side job, but will entertain other ideas.
Discipline is my word of the year. I need to practice it in every aspect of my life, from food, to spending, to drinking, to work ethic.
If you made it to the end of this post, God bless you! I unintentionally created an online diary entry. I look forward to a great year with all of you. Here’s to a positive, healthy, and prosperous 2018!
What do you want to improve in 2018?